Two lives shattered by suicide.
Two men searching for hope.

Jackson
Andrew was my life. My husband. My reason for breathing.
"Time of death eleven-forty-nine p.m."
I will never be whole again.
Andrew doesn't wake up.
And I can't let him go.

A past filled with secrets, lies, and unimaginable trauma.

Lawson
Brandon was more than my brother; he was my best friend.
"You did everything you could."
I was told that sometime soon, my memories of that night would return.
They did, with a vengeance, three nights later in the form of an horrific nightmare that taunted me with visions of my brother's lifeless body and pale blue lips.

What if there's no happy ever after?
What if there's only after?

Author's note: This book contains graphic and disturbing scenes. Please check the trigger warnings at the beginning of the book (available in the sample) or on the author's website before reading.