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Ashes of Regret

Searby Gray

On the Summer Solstice, Mesopotamian gods broke free from their celestial prison in a series of destructive firestorms. Called "The Misbegotten" because of their petty and cruel natures, the gods brought back their idea of normal: subjugating humans and building personal territories through the use of etemmu, or life force. Now humans are rebuilding society within those territories, dependent on the personality of the deity. A clever-but-impulsive human survivor, Tamaki Hayashi, thought her grandmother's stories about plant magic were unbelievable, until she connects with trees, bending their limbs and manipulating their roots. With her beloved grandmother murdered by religious gang members, Tamaki has no one to guide her through learning her power. While rescuing a fox caught by a carnivorous plant, Tamaki accidentally uses blood magic rooted in her anger and fear rather than her plant magic. Feeling confident after escaping the plant, Tamaki again uses blood to pull the spirit of her dead lover into the body of the fox. An, the god of the territory, confronts Tamaki and states that she should have known that blood magic was forbidden. As punishment, An exiles both Tamaki and the modified fox, who calls himself "Scout," to the god Enlil's territory.

Thanks to their etemmu connection, Scout can speak telepathically to Tamaki. Something she'd be grateful for except his words are full of hurt and anger over Tamaki not asking for consent before changing him. Before she can make amends, Tamaki and Scout are arrested and confined in prison for being in Enlil's territory illegally. To escape, Tamaki has to decide whether addiction to blood magic is worth the chance for freedom. If they don't escape, Scout will be sold and she will be sacrificed to Enlil. Sometimes, being a villain is the only way out.

Content Warning: Self-harm

Book Details

  • Publisher: Mudhouse Publishing
  • Publish Date: Aug 23rd, 2022
  • Pages: 374
  • Language: English
  • Edition: undefined - undefined
  • Dimensions: 9.00in - 6.00in - 0.83in - 1.21lb
  • EAN: 9798986573120
  • Categories: • Animals - Mythical Creatures• Dystopian• Fantasy - Dark Fantasy

Praise for this book

ASHES OF REGRET, Searby Gray's debut, pulls no punches as it dances with power and destiny. Gray's deft writing brings to life the hope within tragedy and the hero within all of us. In a transformational twist on a classic duo, her characters fight tooth and nail for their place in a reborn world ruled by petulant ancient deities and blood magic. It's a story of trial, of ascension, the sacrifices we make for the ones we love, and learning when to run from the gods - and when to fight them. An absolute must-read for fans of Ilona Andrews and Tracy Wolff.

-- Taylor Zajonc, award-winning author of The Maw


"Here's the thing I loved the most about this book: Tamaki is just as human as everyone else, with all her perks and flaws. She may be the heroine of this book, but she's not the white hat. The choices she makes during every main transition in this story aren't always the best, and they are certainly not always good...This story doesn't end on a cliffhanger, but ...I can't wait to see what further changes are in store for her and Scout." -- J.L.Gribble, author of the Steel Empires Series