What did I do wrong? Does God hate me? High school sweethearts, Tasha and Jeff, always dreamed of having a family. Instead, they find themselves mourning the loss of their only child, then riding a roller coaster of failed attempts at IVF and a scandalous adoption that ended in heartbreak, leaving Tasha beginning to doubt the value of her life. Through their losses and love, Tasha and Jeff begin to piece together a new and imperfect life, learning that sometimes it's the imperfect and the unexpected that brings them closer together.
A story about loss and depression, infertility, and the struggle to start a family. Through unpredictable times, a love story unfolds from high school sweethearts through marriage.
I read this book in 7 days. I couldn't put it down and read within any time intervals I could get in. The Author shared their story from the darkest parts of a heart to the purest and most vulnerable moments of life. I admire Tasha's courage to not only relive some of the most challenging chapters of her life but also to share them with the world. Infertility is seldom spoken about within your community, much less worldwide. I mean, how do you even start that topic in conversations without it being awkward? The way she told her story spoke to my deepest thoughts. Why can't I get pregnant? Am I not worthy to be a mother? Why do some mothers who have crossed my path are blessed with children, and expecting mothers (mothers who have birthed) do not care for the gifts they were given as the true blessings they are? Why does it hurt so much when you encounter those types of mothers? I appreciate the author's sharing her story; through her story, I felt like she held her hand to me to grab onto for support. While sharing her experiences, I felt like she was comforting me, telling me, You are not alone in this, and for that, I'll always be grateful for this read.