This loose memoir in the form of reflective and introspective poetry and prose is a deep dive into the chaotic polarity of self. A somewhat stream-of-consciousness journey that documents a new day of rearranging. Ford Fanter attempts to look back upon significant moments and marinate in present ones that have thus far set the tone for a life unsatisfied; that have also created a potent and passionate man who is aching to forge new roads ahead. Through brutality honest recollections and imaginative imagery - this personal account lays bare a genuine attempt to understand a life in progress.