The novel tells the story of thirty-eight-year-old Nell who is trapped in an unfulfilling relationship. Her promising acting career has been put on hold while she deals with her ever-increasing anxiety. Nell's search for the person she used to be unearths long buried memories of her family dairy farm, a magical place set in the most beautiful hills of southern Cornwall. Can she escape her current situation, or will the horrors she must confront from the past make her unable to trust herself in the present?