The personal memoir of an Argentine child political prisoner, illegally adopted by the Jorge Rafael Videla military dictatorship to a foreign intelligence officer, as many children were during the period of state terrorism, and raised in the United States with a unique on-the-ground view into the counterintelligence and weapons research community. A solitary outsider witness to the destruction of a nation from within. "I used to ask myself, why would they use lies that put them in such a horrible light? The words had to be true, because what could possibly be worse? Then I saw what they were hiding under all that dirt."