33rd Annual Reading the West Book Award Winner for Memoir, 2023 Foreword INDIES Award Silver Winner, LGBTQ+, and New Mexico-Arizona Book Awards Finalist for Memoir and LGBTQ
"Readers will find hope and peace on these beautifully written pages."--LIBRARY JOURNAL (starred review)
A young person's story of growing up gay in a rural Mormon town and the wild places where he found refuge.
This intimate record lays bare one person's experience growing up in a rural Mormon community and struggling to reconcile his sexual orientation with the religious doctrine of his childhood. Weaving together prose, poetry, and stories scrawled on the margins of high school notebooks, Jonathan T. Bailey encounters truth-seeing owls, anachronistic gourds, and the hard-edged realities of family and church. In When I Was Red Clay, he navigates desert landscapes, mental health, and the loss of faith with unflinching honesty and biting humor.
--TERRY TEMPEST WILLIAMS, The New York Times
"In Bailey's profoundly moving memoir, the diversity of creation illuminates the inner landscape and inspires healing--and wonder. The past is a gift, Bailey says, and this brave journey into the intimate wilderness is another gift. With the clarity and fresh eyes of meditation, we visit the topography of bones, the meaning of the natural world, and the centering of spirit within ourselves, within community, and in our footsteps and vision. In the true meaning of the word: this book is awesome."
--GEORGE K. ILSLEY, author of The Home Stretch: A Father, a Son, and All the Things They Never Talk About
--KARIN ANDERSON, author of Before Us Like a Land of Dreams
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--LIBRARY JOURNAL (starred review)
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--MARYA JOHNSTON, Out West Books